doll diaries pt. i

originally written october 7, 2013

12:01 PM
"no man is an island,
entire of itself.
each is a piece of the continent,
a part of the main.
if a clod be washed away by the sea,
europe is the less.
as well as if a promontory were.
as well as if a manor of thine own
or of thine friend's were.
each man's death diminishes me,
for i am involved in mankind.
therefore, send not to know
for whom the bell tolls,
it tolls for thee.
-john donne
devotions upon emergent occasions, 1624

12:02 PM
riddle me this : if the doll didn't write anymore, would she still be the doll? if the doll hadn't lived in arcadia, would she be any less doll-y? if the doll never met jimmy kiss, would joey kiss be any less cute?
these and more are questions you need to wonder about.
if you didn't guess already, diary, i saw jimmy two nights ago. he came to the riot house for two jack 'n' cokes and a beer. didn't say a word.
he not only knows that joey is out of town, in monticello farm country, but that he proposed. yup, jimmy's little brother really went and did it.
joey proposed and i say yes - now, how about that?
the next day, i got a call from his mother saying, "congratulations!" 
i got a call from johnny kiss saying, "well, it's about time!" 
but i got no call from jimmy saying anything of the sort. 
and then i see him and he doesn't so much as bat an eyelash.
it really makes me sad...his silence.
no man is an island. he must feel something. maybe i don't make him feel anything...make his heart go pitter-patter or his tummy feel full of butterflies, but still...
he looked at me like he never knew me. 
i wanted to just melt into a puddle on the floor and see myself out. 
when i told joey, he basically made a noise equivalent to shrugging and said, "well, that's jimmy. you know him better than i do, babe, his reaction fits his bill." 
which hurt even worse. 
the bell tolls for thee...

8:02 PM
doesn't matter.
on the 13th i have tim bob flying into arcadia to visit us here in the hills for the usual piece for hep parade. i thought about cancelling it...again...but i need to work. i have to write. i have to be the doll. 
somedays i do it for me; somedays i do it for the fans; somedays i do it for joey. somedays i do it for those who don't know me at all. future fans. or future critics. you never know. 
i just remember all the good old times, you know? back when i could write existential shit on esoteric topics featuring both the light and  dark corners of the american experiment. when did joey get so moody? when did i care so much? when did the drugs get so heavy? the days get so short? the doll....a harpy?  

everything you need to know about "the doll diaries"

"the doll diaries" via the pretty people club via the doll via true life stories

kathleen is the type of person who, if in your home unsupervised, would snoop through your entire life and read your journal. now it's our turn.

i kid you not, but that is the actual promotional tagline for her upcoming series of articles. and yes, they will be ripped from the pages of the doll's own journal. i know what you're thinking : 

never before has she done anything like this - the first copy of the magazine, which hasn't even gone to print, has already sold-out. the head of PR for pretty people said that only 1,000 copies were being put into circulation and, well, it is what it is, folks! better luck next time!

little has been released, but there's been several teasers floated around recent copies of hep parade outlining the entries. no, sadly it's not full of handcrafted love spells, poems based off of mushroom trips and unfinished lyrics to riot grrrl songs...it was more her pining about jimmy kiss, talking about her tarot card readings and being a generally mystifying creature. i had really hoped it was full of inner monologue from shit like private jet trips, arguments with other celebrities, A-list parties...who's a big bitch, who's sleeping with who and who is one what medications.

there's some of that. but then there's some painful stuff to read that cuts deep at times truly. she's not immune to public opinion and, contrary to urban legend, actually has feelings. she's flesh and blood just like you or me. newsflash!

still, a lot of fans feel this comes in the wake of her revealing she's back with old beau, jimmy kiss. that, even though she's willing to momentarily sacrifice her privacy, she has ulterior motives. there's been a lot of talk for a lot of months that this is another famous doll publicity stunt, done just despite joey, la la la. i don't know, i don't care, i'm just here to report the facts, people! 

PS: i'd much rather read her diaries than her fanmail, just saying.

like sands through the hourglass...

...these are the answers to fanmail from our doll

classic doll. just when you think she went back to her hobbit hole for good, a fanmail article comes out of left field. always. 
there's lots to answer for, though! she has a new album in the works; she was recently kicked out of her own event; oh, and i guess she could answer a few questions about getting back with her ex-boyfriend and uncle of her kid!!! i'm just on the edge of my seat to see what she'll say about that topic...
this isn't our first time at the rodeo, people, so let's just dive in head first :

Q: Good year for you, babes?
A: i mean...........it happened....it's over now

Q: How are you feeling?
A: ABSOLUTE SHIT....like a dim bulb

Q: You were recently barred by security from your own event - what quite happened?
A: ask my lawyer. i could lie to you and say i was being a good girl, but, well, that would be a lie.

Q: There's rumors that GRRRL will be a sort of revenge album, aimed at Joey Kiss. Any truth in that?
A: WHERE DO U PPL COME FROM? i haven't even began writing the fucker - how could it already be decided a revenge album?
ON SECOND THOUGHT - I;M GONNA AIM IT STRAIGHT 4 U 

Q: If you follow in the footsteps of years past, are you planning on allowing Joey Kiss to stay living in Grimaldi at your home?
A: WUT
HE;S DADDY
THIS IS A CONFUSING QUESTION...
PURPLE?

Q: You seem like the type to cry yourself asleep at night...what's up with that?
A: U TELL ME - i also look like the type to hunt down fans and murder them in their sleep
#insomnia

Q: Who do you love more - Joey or Jimmy?
A: JOHNNY
the forgotten kiss brother

Q: Who is going to babysit Quetzy on tour? Joey or Jimmy? 
A: why not headlock? what ruled him out? he's great at dressing my child in mismatching clothing, playing death metal around her and giving her candy past 8 PM. he's a dandy. matter of fact, he's hired right now and going under my contract. 

Q: There's word that you may go "off the grid" in the wilderness of Monticello to record your album. You've done it before - why not do it again?
A: Because apparently my secret hiding spot ain't so secret anymore!

Q: Aren't you still on speed?
.....again, apparently my secret ain't such a secret anymore!
;P

Q: Would you ever date another woman?
A: WHY DO U THINK I KEEP STAZ SO CLOSE?

Q: What influences you in your art? Your writing; music; filmmaking?
A: not TV
not radio
not the magazines
LIFE
go live it. it's outside...on planet earth...i think

Q: Quetzy is sure growing up to be quite the beautiful little lady - have you any ideas of introducing her to the entertainment industry?
A: 2 LATE ALREADY DID + IT DIDN'T WORK
i took a photo of her holding a wild barn kitty by a river and was told by the local newspaper that i STAGED THE SCENE and if it didn't look so fake, Q would have pulled the pag' and became monticello's pint-sized itty bitty baby glamour queen. 
come thru jonbenét ramsey!! 

Q: No one actually thinks you're talented - all people care about is your personal drama.
A: question was that not.

Q: In one interview, Joey mentioned that you were a true crime buff and that you would drive him "up the wall" with hours of crime scene footage and police deposition videos...any truth in that?
A: O YA DETECTIVE DOLL REPORTING 4 DUTY! 

Q: What is your favorite famous murder case? 
A: 2 MANY 2 COUNT : charlie manson...richard ramirez...menendez brothers...OJ...i solve unsolved mysteries in my off hours

Q: What's your favorite food? The best dish you've ever had?
A: my #1 favorite food is : OXYGEN
best dish i've ever had : your integrity

Q: Jimmy told a reporter candidly that you two continuted your friendship via correspondence through letters throughout the years. Any elaboration on that?
A: 4 ME 2 KNOW + U 2 FIND OUT!!! I'LL XEROX U COPIES WUT'S UR ADDRESS

Q: What do you actually know about Black Magic? 
A: i've watched scooby doo like...a lot
i could teach the class on scooby doo

Q: Oh yeah? What's your favorite episode? 
A: THE 1 W/ THE CREEPER
i always thought he was so misunderstood
that creeper
just like the night stalker
richie ramirez really floated my boat, if you know what i mean! 

Q: Speaking of Scooby Doo, what cartoons does Quetzy like now that she's a little older?
A: she really likes anything harmony korine
her favorite TV show is about drag queens
she's also been reading philip roth
i know, i know...i'll have to keep my eye on that little rugrat

Q: Where do you see your daughter in the future?
A: leading the revolution...

Q: Are you planning on putting Q into public school, private school or homeschooling her?
A: SHE'LL TEACH HERSELF JUST FINE
TRUST ME
or i'll just send her to finishing school ala the 1950s 

Q: Who or what are you? I'm confused.
A: ME 2
well, let's see......that's a loaded question if i've ever heard one.
astrologically, i'm a capricorn-aquarius, on the cusp.  i'm down to earth but very much a storyteller; capricorn is oft represented by pan, as in peter pan. so, in a sense, i'm a dreamer, never wanting to grow up, but on the other hand, i'm independent and ambitious. i'm a conundrum. truly wish i could be more help, but, well, i can't. 

Q: How tall is Jimmy Kiss? 
A: 6'3"...6'6" with heels
;)

Q: What's your favorite song on the radio right now?
A: "made in japan"
-buck owens
-1972

in other doll news, kathleen has ditched her classic kinderwhore babydoll dress from the 70s for a pair of railroad worker's stripey overalls from the great depression. although our baby babble is giving 50% hobo, 25% 'it' girl and 25% don't give a fuck, i have been clocking her from the jump. next she's going to trade in her ballet slippers for a pair of disco rollerskates
and her ratty blonde locks are going to turn into cotton candy. it's only a matter of time until she goes full blown schizo nuts and shocks the world by taking a vow of silence in the mountains with the monks.
 

happy valentine's day via jimmy kiss and the doll

ALPHA - ALPHA - ALPHA :

THIS IS NOT A DRILL!

EVERYONE TO THEIR NEAREST MUSTER STATIONS! 

needless to report - kathleen grace and jimmy kiss are back together again.

the prophecies, warnings and smoke signals in the sky were all true! those two truly are meant to be together, and not even jimmy's own brother can stand in the way. our girl lives a really weird life and today's headlines in the grimaldi tabloids can only prove my point.

jimmy kiss, uncle to quetzy - child of kathleen and joey kiss, his younger brother - used to date kathleen back in the stone ages and hasn't barked up her tree for years. in fact, after several futile attempts to recapture the doll's black heart, he basically stayed lurking in the background...which is his best look in my opinion.

anyways, the blind item that has been circling around the rumor mill is true. several months ago, while joey began producing and kathleen began wrapping up major production on shady lake, uncle jimmy kiss was moved into the massive coco cave to "help out" aka be the help. 

joey, weaning himself off of drugs and trying to spend most of his time busy with work, is said to be attending regular sobriety meetings and therapy sessions to ensure he remains healthy. people close to our girl say that she doesn't want sadsack joey around the baby anymore because he's truly no help and she fears their child is going to be tainted, damaged and forever screwed up because of his essence. i say that quetzy will most likely be all of those things anyways, because her parents are totally the president and vice president of crazytown. 

regardless, everything was confirmed when kathleen's PR rep said that it was a mutual decision between the two parents, in an effort to better joey's health and for kathleen to have positive role models in young quetzy's life. not that joey is a bad influence, but when quetzy starts drawing needles instead of space ships in kindergarten...you know why...

with that being said - jimmy has been living there for months and i'm sure some lonely tuesday back in august of last year, kathleen totally snuck into his hobbit hole, did some kind of naked jig for him and that was all she wrote! jimmy has been waiting patiently by the phone, window and outside of the doll's gates since she left him in the mesozoic period and his dreams just totally came true. being allowed to move his winklepickers, trilbies and crack-stained peacoats back into the doll's closet in an honor above all. 

in closing, i really can't wait to see what kind of uncle-stepdaddy he turns out to be........*drops that bomb and runs away*

oh and yes, don't bother double-checking - it's valentine's day and not april fools, or friday the 13th or national joke's on your day. .