doll diaries pt. iii

originally written january 21, 2017 

9:04 PM
jimmy stopped by the house here in arcadia to borrow some old records and we ended up going to dinner. as if no time had passed, we ducked the photogs staked outside the gated and all that...the old drill. headlock just shook his head when i told him. you can't see me right now but i'm shrugging. i dunno. i'll always love him. he's apart of me.

i have to leave and come back for a pretty people club shoot. was thinking about hiring jimmy. 

"soon, soon...the unsweet by and by" -@heavyhorse

11:07985562781 PM
did i tell ya he sent me a love letter? it was misspelled, full of references even i, yours truly, didn't 'get', but laden with underlying love and mystery. my favorites. 
he sent it to me about a month ago.
i was too busy fighting off pregnancy rumors and drug rumors and wedding rumors and joey suicide rumors. or were they rumours? were they not whispers, echoing through the hidden glades of cielo and arcadia? and have they not been uttered for years, just in different variations? 

i'm no good at being alone. jimmy is well aware.
he's my waterloo, like they say...which would make me his gypsy lane...

10:11 PM
it took me at least an hour and then the amount of time to smoke a cigarette to find that damned love letter. 
still, the words are destined for me and me alone. so i shall only post an excerpt : 
"the stress of longing...

coarse as you were down the old canal, you were the river and i was fine...
at the harbour deep and mine...
you're estranged and i am fine.

you must be a stranger or broken-hearted. the uschi of my dreams.

kissy kissy."

11:46 PM
super duper cryptic, wouldn't you agree? i have to admit it made me shake and shiver. he always knows just what to say to me to make me melt. what a funny relationship. i sometimes wonder myself...how long we'll do this dance. he;s my favorite person - my greatest feature. 
my muse? surely. 

doll documentary by her, starring her...

directed by her, written by her and soundtrack arranged by her
also costume design, special effects and craft service will be done by her as well...

kathleen has secretly been filming "a day in the life of the doll" (working title) for over three years - which would mean pre-pregnancy doll scenes full of crack-cocaine, tattered ballet slippers and spliffs for days - and just finally squawked about the production.

apparently, and unbeknownst to us - her true blue fanbase - she has been collecting footage since late 2013 and is nearing the final cut. third in the collection of doll films - alongside DIG! and HEP! - kathleen gave her vow that there will be no other films with her likeness will never ever ever again and if you want a front-row seat to the one and only doll's misadventures, just wait until the flick comes out in theatres, darling!  

speaking of, i have yet to mention the real title of the picture :

DOLL!

it's probably going to be some kind of tarantino-y, kubrick-y type of piece...like being john malkovich, only being the doll. basically the visual version of what "true cielo story" and "true isle of grimaldi story" have given us historically. all i know is, she's going to produce, star and, um, do the soundtrack the house down! 

plus, she has since fired troublemaker director holzy von holzhausen, more likely for his tendency to have set romances than his actual work performance. who knows, though? i've never tried to understand kathleen's thought process, just follow it. 

anyways, here's the list of potential, rumored and otherwise people not affiliated with the project, but that most likely will be (and in no particular order of hotness) : 

• johnny frigiletti (has documented several lost boys tours; did minor work on DIG! and HEP!)

• bram goodman (yes, beau's older, better, more handsome and actually employed brother)

• casamir pulaski and kavinski pulaski (polish filmmaking brothers out of, well, poland)

• olly oxenfree (not sure if that's his birth name, or...)

• trigger johnson (researched and is his birth name)

and - last but not least :

• JOHNNY KISS!

stay tuned for updates! 
TL; DR: the doll has another project in the works and it's all visual, baby.